Many are shocked that I'm so optimistic, because a lot of people who drunkard, loaded, in itself goes. Close people. Why be limited? I am broken, cut, lost a lot of weight, but still alive, parents are alive, what else to completely happy? And if I survived, so I'm still early on that light. I used to have fear of death, now I understand, if destined, so destined. To tempt fate - not interested, but I turned off the fear of almost everything. The only thing that scared of losing loved ones.

I'm 21, I - officer-Lieutenant. Originally from Chernigov. At the age of 17 he went to study in Lviv, graduated from the Academy of ground forces. Released in June of this year, and in July by order I went to Lugansk. Was the platoon commander of the first armored brigade. I was given 30 people and military equipment, in General, all, as the book says. At the front stayed about two weeks, until the moment when he was wounded by shrapnel mines. It happened the Day paratrooper, 2 August.

When we arrived, it was terrible the first 2 hours. We were at the roadblock to stand, but were shocked, we were sent. Because it worked before the defense of the roadblock, the battle for him and the guards. I'm having some basic knowledge, I began to figure out how to save people. Because I am the commander. Taught the boys how to shoot fast during rush from behind cover, with replacement shop. And what is most interesting, I had to work not so ordered, and to encourage my subordinates. And they were really interested. Although lice were examined. I realized that this is a test, therefore, has proved to be the best. Sometimes I was not acting commander, but did as it should. And in the end, after shelling the result was visible: people live, the attack was beaten off, everyone is happy.
There I saw is not what you see online or on TV. We changed the 30th brigade and remained, kept so high that the enemy was not broken in the direction of Happiness and on. Stood in a suburb of Lugansk. We are fully staffed. The only minus is weak armament.
The problem was that no range finders, night vision devices, that is, we stood there just as blind cats. Our eyes and ears are the only devices at night.
I understood what really mess happens in Lugansk. How people lived without light, without water, without food, without anything. There is even a technique could not enter, simply that the products what to bring. There day and night on both sides of malali "Grads". Civilians can say, lived in hell, under constant fire. People voted for LNR, DND. The same grandmother who complain that they are there bad, so they come to it. So they at least let each other will be shot, I don't really care. Basically there were those who in Russia. We went there in order to protect a simple Ukrainian people, which walks the streets, sells in stores, is at the pump. I didn't go there to fight for our politicians, our headquarters. Simply, if we had not gone, the enemies were already here.
Affects how people are so blinded to take weapons and go against the Ukrainians, that is, against their own. I believe that the region should be fenced by high walls, as in China, and let them live there by themselves. We this region has 100% lost. A peaceful solution is to give it away and build roadblocks in three lines of defense and to create permanent part, even mobile any where there are soldiers, equipment, weapons. And there could not care less. Not to put down the electricity, water and food. There are still sponsor the Crimea - idiots. This is stupid, since it is already recognized the Russian Federation.
While I was at the front, I realized that everything I was taught very well fixed in my head. But as we studied the tactics of the Second world war, our military has simply forgotten how to fight. The only thing they know is how to paint the curb, pinch the grass and paint the horizontal bar of some sort. Intelligent people are the teachers. But they do not fight. And those who were in the headquarters or the military, and remained there. If military any uncle and went briefly, then immediately decided that he already atonic. Immediately himself paperwork was done quickly, and the rest of the guys who really are fighting, this piece of paper to take not so simple. I'm not talking about the fact that we should give the combatant. This should deal with our government, but our government is without power, so you have to twist to twist, to collect all that I need. And compensation to pay not really want.
In the Academy we were in the role of a platoon, but it is teaching. And the war is all grown-up, here people are dying here hurt and not shoot at targets. Thirtieth brigade was heavily stocked, so opponents much to us didn't come up. They knew that we can give them a lot rebuff. When 30-ka left, she took with them. And if in the past our invaders poured the leaden rain, then we couldn't even really fight back to give, because I do not see where we shoot. They immediately understood that we - the new contingent, weak, still green, just arrived. And we really have no experience was not even. On the 4th or 5th day went their tank that never during the 30-key not traveled, undermined one fighting machine. Then his visits were repeated. And one night they called, I understand, mortar spotters, and if he did not fall clearly on our positions, gave miss meters 100-200, then began to beat into the center. The second of August I woke up from a powerful shooting and realized that with me will be something wrong, either with my people. Thought that maybe some kind of counterattack, and we'll just knock the position. At night they came so close that started shooting in the open. The first mine got in front of the dugout, and I behind the dugout stood, wanted too cause fire, because I have seen where he was beaten, when they are already open field set mortar. I wanted his mortars to say, that they also covered one square and only began to try company to call, heard mine whistles on top. This mine put me and two boys. One of them is outdoor to have a broken arm, another leg got hit, well, I already went to be healthy. I have three arteries in the leg broke and knee Cup snatched; in his hand was fractured radial bone in the powder, I have now instead of a piece of iron is. And in the abdominal cavity was hit, and on the second leg. The left side had all suffered.

The only one that I whole - a right hand. And neck splinter through his Adam's Apple went through. I don't even know how the head is not hooked. If not for the armor, I wouldn't be here - 100%.
I showed a photo of what it was chopped, like a sword. Well, that morning laid a hand grenade from a bullet - flair what it was that we need to get her.
I post this so I started to believe in fate. To die you can, if not at war, so somewhere in a drunken bad company, on a motorcycle or in an accident. Anything can happen. You can simply get out of bed, slip and die. Therefore, written to me on the race pace to lose, though the war was lost - not so insulting.
But psychologically, I didn't change anything, as I was always cheerful, and left. Of course, the first time 2 months I have experienced is that the enemy will not even want. While there, want to get it all separatum, and that they then, this state is not selected. Because it is a state of eternal pain, as if I really in this or in a previous life did something wrong, go to hell and I needed to experience this moment. I have such a strong body that I am resistant to alcohol cannot be drunk. And it backfired when I started stabbing pain. Four stung, but to no avail. Until I was brought in for 13 hours from Lugansk to Kharkov, I'm not passed out. Really wanted to off - so it hurt, but could not. Slept only on the operating table in Kharkiv. I still leg was. I was sent to Kiev, wanted to see: you can save my leg or not. In Kiev looked that to lose weight has nothing, brought a piece of paper to sign and suggested amputation or not. I asked that if not amputation? Said that 4 days will develop gangrene and you wasted all that survived. I said, "no, that's not good".
I was taken to the operating room, and at night woke up, looking at feet no longer there. Thought that was a dream. Felt was true, but stayed alive. Then came ligation surgery on his hand. Even difficult to describe as it is... if the entire span of the little finger to strike the corner tables, only 500 times more painful.
Come to me and psychologists, and psychiatrists, wanted to talk to me. But I asked them to leave. I don't need their help I Have a roof did not go. Yes, the first 2 weeks dreamed of the war at night for the weapon grasped, and that the drip was standing next to. Just habit remained and the reaction to the noise. But then all is back to normal now.
I've tried to walk on the prosthesis and very well. The first prosthesis I decided to take the state. Yes, it is cheap, free, walking inconvenient, painful, but it can learn. To abandon our can't because I will have at least a notion of what it is. But in General I have decided to buy or German, or Japanese, you just need money to collect. In Ukraine there are parts of Japan and Germany, but it's the same thing that gather here, for example "Porsche". I want to go to Germany after some time, so they put a normal prosthesis and taught me to live with it.
There are good people who bring money even in the hospital. I don't spend them on gulki, don't see the point, because I have a headache only about one, about how to learn to walk. I think maybe somewhere there is a sedentary kind of work. It is possible for the computer, or even a newspaper to do, but that I was getting paid for it.
No legs, but this is a temporary inconvenience. Many are shocked that I'm so optimistic, because a lot of people who drunkard, loaded, in itself goes. Close people. Why be limited? I am broken, cut, lost a lot of weight, but still alive, parents are alive, what else to completely happy? And if I survived, I mean early on that light. I used to have fear of death, now I understand, if destined, so destined.
To tempt fate - not interested, but I turned off the fear of almost everything. The only thing that scared of losing loved ones.
I had a dream of a fool: when did he thought, was promoted to 35 years and then will be retired, and on the job. Now I'm 21 and I'm already retired. Left her now only to arrange to go through all the fee and get the group. I want next year to go to school. Maybe in Kiev Polytech, or lions, or we in Chernigov.
When I went on vacation during the study, looked at the guys, we had common interests, and began to talk now, I realized that I already look at life differently. Although I do baby, if you think so, but managed to see as much as many cannot for the life.
I began to appreciate now absolutely everything. Earlier on didn't pay much attention, now clinging to each thread, appreciate every minute. Don't want to sit, to sleep, to drink some moments. Because usually a lot around him do not see, and when the whole life flashed before my eyes, and you don't know, will you survive or not, everything becomes different. When I was in Kharkov was, I already wreaths were placed. But in the intensive care unit was pumped out. During these 2 months that I spent in the hospital, in the same window, even just to look nice is to see what a beauty on the street.
I dated a girl for more than a year, and when I called her to say that I'm all good, it was still - I was upset. It turned out it is more concerned that she was after work and I had a fight with my mum said that I called and that she had no mood to talk to me. And when he came to the hospital - the beginning of the swing right that it is the most important thing and I have to understand who you're talking to. This attitude I don't deserve, so I told her that we were not on the way.
We have to live with a dream. I would very much like in the future to have a house from a frame and a small area in the woods near a lake. And everything else will work out. I want to just relax, like it or not - deserve.

Text and photo: Vika Yasinskay, Censor.NET

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