In the war there are many things we simply do not know and never know.. Just let us remember our children who died, who wanted to be better. And this is the most important thing. In our country we have very good people. We, probably, he still didn't understand. Maybe they didn't want to imagine it to Wake up. But now you can see that we are able to adjust, to arrange, to unite. Then we will be all right.

I come from Zaporozhye, I am 25 years old, I am a future journalist. Next year, in the summer, protect diploma.

Ivan had multiple shrapnel wounds, he lost his eyes, his hands, his damaged leg.
I never wanted to fight, I'm a peaceful person, but is willing to protect people, their land, on which I was born and live.
I very much love children. Have none of my own yet, but have a lot of friends with children. I was going to fight for their future, that they have not seen what we have just seen. Although, when I was a kid, too, had no idea that you have to see war.
I was called in may. Went to the front without hesitation, by bringing a bag per day. Came in the 39th battalion of the territorial defence. My guys standing there still; I very much love and care for them. We were based in the Dnipropetrovsk region, received specialized training. Us pretty well trained. I already had some experience, because I went through military service. After training slowly began to move in the direction of the Donbass. Began with peaceful areas and reached Ilovaisk. When were surrounded, there was very battered. A lot of good guys died. But we kept the front as he could. Then we were told that we will go on a peaceful green corridor. But the passage was not quite green, and even red. All our machines are accurate hits were bombed. Ammunition was over. What was going on there - it's hard to explain. This war - and it is terrible; there are a bunch of "sorry" and a bunch of strange. It is unclear why it happened in Ilovaisk? All went ahead, such as liberated territory. Local people have established communication. Everyone helped each other out. Mutual aid was great.
When going out, I even dog saved, which we have drifted. I'm with her and came out of this corridor. Her name is Chuck. In captivity it sat fed the remains of shpikov. Then gave it to the little son of a commander who led us in a time corridor.
In captivity I spent 4 days. Took us personnel of the Russian military. They are the same guys as we are, many of them also just doin. Among them were also those who were very much afraid, and hid. Many did not want to fight. Between us and them was initially the voltage, and then we talked quietly. Sit one of them is near, put your machine, not afraid already that it will select and begin to shoot. Yes and nothing happened. They're very tightly stood and we could cover in one hit.
Prisoner then many took. My Department is 33 persons, almost all were, except two, which we lost when going out. Wounded was too much. But compared to "Drom", where sat my friends, is not captured, it is easy restraint and freedoms.
We lived in the field, ate corn, watermelons. Among them there was plenty to eat. The first time gave us one cohpac for 10 people. And the last couple of days -1 cohpac for four. With water there were also large straining, and our water from wells Russians drink would not feared. And watermelons our feared there, said they were poisoned. But then still ate them with us. In General Russians are a lot of guys saved, as promised, providing them with first aid. Everyone needs time out of the country. Then we were looking for their comrades in different hospitals. Glory to God, who remained alive, well, and all of them will be fine. I was more or less intact. Arms and legs in place. After 4 days we are lucky, we exchanged the Red Cross. Took first in Dnipropetrovsk region, and then to Kiev.
The house has gathered the remnants of the battalion, gathered, and sent back. We went in Lugansk region. There during rotation were stretching.
I grabbed mine and it exploded in my hands. To throw it, I could not, because the right - a lot of people left too. And ahead is the back my friend.
I remember that I turned away and all that I remember nothing but pain.
I came many times in consciousness. I was told that it has happened, even when sewing. I remember before my eyes - dark, around voices some; could not understand where I am and who I am. Everything was just floating. After learning that he had lost his hands and eyes, negative emotions are not experienced. Yes, happened to me, but I am alive. Talk to me different people. I and the girls tried to talk, the names they were asked. Most of all, while he was driving, I remembered that I wanted to drink. Just unbearably hard, and it was impossible to drink. Lips were wet, literally a breath or two and gave all.

Now I plan to live as he lived, full life. I will help people as much as I can, as I always did. Getting a little interested in, what are dentures. But I still early, there is a process of healing. Will have to get used to them and the barriers some will, of course, psychological. But my life goes on. And for something God I left it, then I will live on.
I have always appreciated people, but after he visited the war began to appreciate them even more. On the front I met and talked with these guys, which I have changed a lot. I saw guys can come together, to be together. How can a total stranger people to do each other serious things. Life to risk. This is power. And if it continues, then it is the first step to ensure that our country will survive. And our politicians let them as you like and understand each other.
One of my main goals - I want a better life for us. When you come out in the summer in the Park, see chase the children laugh. It takes over the soul, when people live in the world. When all of them have a good time when the country takes care of its people and when the mother doesn't think what to buy products for their child.
If everything goes well, and I will be all right. And I want to stand on my feet, I want to communicate and move. I generally people fidget. This is the first time in my life when I'm lying in the hospital the whole bound - unusual.
Wish I had a whole bunch of children - seven. And the house on the banks of the Dnieper.
My mother, for my experiences, and I for her very nervous. I she is one. Imagine how she was with me, had suffered, and it is unpleasant. I will try to give her the warmth that she gave me, for the rest of her life. Mother is the most Holy people. I love and deeply respect. Get well and I will try to do so, that her life was carefree and beautiful. This will be one of my goals.
In the war scared constantly. Scared every minute. Go - scary, sitting somewhere, bullet heard scary, go to sleep - scary, but that's how man copes with his fear is important. You need to set up and to break this fear. You cannot blame someone who will fall and it will shake is a shock, it is necessary to help you rescue him because the most valuable thing a person's life. And the other with fear run forward, and not in the trench will sit down, because it's the way it worked. In all different ways.
If you need to go to war again, I'll go. And it unconditionally. That's just my state need to improve.
In the war there are many things we simply do not know and never know. Just let us remember our children who died, who wanted to be better. And this is the most important thing. In our country we have very good people. We have so far not understood. Maybe they didn't want to imagine it to Wake up. But now you can see that we are able to adjust, to arrange, to unite. Then we will be all right.
Tears are different, I can also cry. When his friend recall, for example. It is hard for me to talk about it, but he is also very influenced my worldview. We close contact and I very sorry for him. He is my one year old, died near Transfer.
To me here the guy came, he was brought in a wheelchair, he since the childhood cerebral palsy patient. He writes poetry and read one of them here. Touched were all who were in the room, some crying. His poems really touched.
But in General in my life - a lot of joy. Communication is a joy for me. I'm from each day try something joyful for him to bear. Classmates came, which for many years have not seen. We were glad that we met, but not happy in this environment. But nothing heals all " let's go for a walk.
I don't hate his enemy. I think that if you're not going to respect him, you never will win. And hatred eats the man inside.
And our government should not chair to share and to communicate with people, to negotiate with other countries to adopt experience. Move forward and not stand still. We have a very large potential. We can make high-quality things. I've seen jackets that came soldiers; you wear it once, hands in his pockets stuck - pockets and you have not. Or moved a leg, and you have it on the joint broke. Damn this coat soldier? And such examples are a whole bunch. All the sly, of course, begins to change - people pressure, volunteers, journalists. Everything will be different, just not as quickly as we would like. But the most important task now is to solve the conflict in the Donbass. Then you will begin and the economy to rise. We need a good head, bright minds. And the government should make the people began to believe it, and not Vice versa.

Text and photo: Vika Yasinskay

Source: http://censor.net.ua/