Now I know that Ukraine is generally not going to leave. Except that I will leave to the prosthesis. I really want to end this war, and that nothing and no one was forgotten. I am often asked the question, what are you going to fight? For what you have lost a leg? At first I answered calmly, and then with aggression that went out to defend their parents. So no drunk, high on the face began to expel them from your own home. Left due to the fact that those who ask such questions, not hiding in basements. So they had the opportunity to live a normal life without seeing the horror that is going on now in the East. To some people it reaches, and some, unfortunately, no. For 500 km from here there is a terrible war, and I don't know how you can not understand.

I am a resident. Before the army he worked in the trade. One day I was watching the TV show, and the guys there talked about the fact that there is no rotation, because there is no one to fight, urged that no others were hiding behind women. I was planning to go abroad, I at that time were ready documents for departure to Austria. I dreamed about it, but this story something in me has changed. I the whole night after not sleeping. And in the morning got a call from the recruiting office that need documents to bring. It's just fate was no different. I don't even hesitated, came back and handed me a summons. At home, I did not tell anyone about what I take. And purely by chance my Granny saw the agenda and asked what it was.

On Wednesday I had to go to Austria, all was paid, but I decided otherwise and on Saturday went to war. It was a very important choice.
First we were taken to the training center in Yavoriv the polygon. Sent to the gunners. We stayed there for 10 days, and then began to form lists and our battalion commander said that me and three other guys send in the 24th brigade. When we were in Kharkov, we were immediately informed that we are going to ATO, and some of the guys that were with us, were sent South. They still stand at the borders.
In Kharkiv we got the technique. I was appointed commander of the 3rd division. We had a separate platoon, and I had 7 people in subjection. We have grouped the machine, subespecies ammunition and went. Before the first checkpoint was 160 km of road, but I had to go the day even more. Because technology is constantly broke.
When we reached Hvorostyanko, and there stood our staff, our third branch was attached to the sixth company. Me sapom' ataloa Dmitrovka village - it was the first point where we stopped. There the people were very frightened. Within two weeks the village was constantly shelled, because there stood our troops. From hurricanes and tornadoes" were killed a lot of our guys. When we walked through the village, and met yards on unbroken shells, just the tails sticking out of the ground. Everything everywhere was littered with debris. Of course, people reacted very strongly, thought that our visit them again start bombing. I understand these people. However, some who have supported us, in spite of all: washed clothes, cakes brought. One day, we went with the boys in the shower for one woman and asked her why she helps us. She said that we live in one state and I am Ukrainian. Why do not understand the other, I can explain. She just picked up the remote, turned on the TV, and there is only 4 Russian channel and all.
We had a great deal to move, up until a constant point of deployment is Agevi that close to Happiness. There we joined a platoon of grenadiers. As such attacks was not there, thank God. In General, we have focused on during the passage of various subversive groups. Were on duty 12 hours day and night. We had no thermal or night lamp. Sastopas at night, while the moon shines, shows well, and then from the third hour until dawn, only listen. I had the aggravation hearing, because I react to every rustle. It is unclear who and where it may go. It was terrible for the guys, because to stand for 12 hours is not 3. People were asleep, of course. We had certain points, and between them was 20-30 meters distance. Whispered. If you heard that someone somewhere is falling asleep, pmposal from a different perspective and gave an opportunity to a person to sleep an hour. So for each other to insure. When there were breaks, even when they are just flares worked, we, without warning, opened fire.
I've seen sometimes, as people can not stand psychologically this war. There was a case, when the elder man that my father is good, he began to cry because he wants to come home to his family. What can I do in this situation? Just to reassure words that will be back for sure, just have to wait. And he still cries like a little kid. It was all very unusual for me. It hurts to see that. In the war and become a warrior, and a psychologist at the same time. We almost all were older than me. And for some reason I often had to reassure people. But sometimes the emotions burst out, tears come out. Was bored, of course, for the family. But the thought that it was not necessary to go to war, I never had.
I had the feeling that here in the civilian world will never feel, is the unity of the team, a strong friendship. Sometimes "repulsed" people, they are simply put into place. And in General, everything worked like a fist.
I was wounded at the end of one duty: 3 bullet severed an artery in his leg. Immediately felt a very sharp pain.
I will never forget, as I lay on the concrete and saw death in the face, is when I feel the heat from his own blood, and her so much that you're in there like swim. I still feel its smell.

People say that they have no fear of death. But I was in such a state, on the brink, you might say. Even the pain I feel. At the same time there is a very strong thirst for life. Then begin to pray earnestly. It is very scary. Me at this moment, perhaps, something in my head something clicked in my head. All the past in one second has passed. He immediately understood what I was doing wrong... But I survived, thanks guys. They managed to impose a harness.
I transported within 10 hours. And this was the reason for the amputation of his leg. I did not lose consciousness, although I wanted to escape. I was brought in Raigorodsky in the clinic, there stood, looked, there was nothing to do failed. I yelled to inject an anesthetic, so strong was the pain. The doctors gave analgin - it's even funny. Then came the guys from the 95-th brigade of military field hospital and injected something normal. Began to dress and transported to the hospital Novoaidar. But they couldn't operate. Then in the morning a helicopter took me to Kharkov. Woke up in intensive care, and there are so many guys lay, and almost all with such terrible wounds that, looking at them, I thanked God for what you have problems with the leg. The status of these soldiers is not words to describe, except that one word - stuffing. And if they are living, breathing. I think what they such torments? So it is impossible to say, but despite this, it seems that it is better to die. This is all very influenced me.
The next day I was told that I was going to Kiev. In Kiev, I don't know why, but I felt like at home. Although the house was still far away. I was immediately greeted by the volunteers and said that I arrived on my birthday. I forgot that already the 12th of October and I was 27 years old.. the Holiday was special: we can say that the second time I was born.
I found a very good doctor. Told that required amputation. I said that I let them do everything you need. It was hard to see how parents react to this. My dad, however he was not a strong character and spirit, it is hard endured. Hurt on this watch.
After the amputation, I was placed in intensive care because he started bleeding, which noticed one girl volunteer, I would call her my guardian angel. Was operated on again saved the second time.
During rehabilitation I was tormented by a terrible pain, but I managed. Now support others.
In the hospital no matter who you are and where and what is your title. And we all understand that if we do not support each other, none of us do. This is the awareness we now holds.
I'm positive, I was given 2 months only on wound healing, and I for a month and ten days stood on crutches. The doctor said that I'm smart, because a good mood can all be overcome. And there are no hopeless situations.
Now I know that Ukraine is generally not going to leave. Except that I will leave to the prosthesis. I really want to end this war, and that nothing and no one was forgotten. I am often asked the question, what are you going to fight? For what you have lost a leg? At first I answered calmly, and then with aggression that went out to defend their parents. So no drunk, high on the face began to expel them from your own home. Left due to the fact that those who ask such questions, not hiding in basements. So they had the opportunity to live a normal life without seeing the horror that is going on now in the East. To some people it reaches, and some, unfortunately, no. For 500 km from here there is a terrible war, and I don't know how you can not understand.
I for life will be remembered children's drawings and writing, and I have a lot of them. When they came to the front, was an incredible silence because everyone was sitting and reading. For us it was like a breath of fresh air from the house. From where do not shoot. One day I came across a letter from a girl who writes poetry. I read her poems all, he was sincere and good. And then I met her, we were in a social network. She has already visited me in the hospital, and now will often communicate. I really want a family and a son, because I am one in the family heir.
Before my students came to Nicholas, the tenth in the queue stood and asked: "tell us something". It may sound cruel, but I said, "study well, be wise, do everything to ensure that the next generation was easier to live. You do not have the right to learn now, because for the sake of you fight and kill the guys in the East." And I think my words are very affected.
Now I have a completely different look at the world. I used to be such a person, which almost were not interested in anything except his life. Now we are planning to open a public organization for support of the guys that fought. At least to help those documents to do. I found like-minded people and hope that we will bring this idea to life. While lying in vascular surgery, chambers walked volunteers and wrote a video message for guys who are discouraged.
I never thought that I would encourage someone by their example. This war is not useless, though, because it changes people. And we now have to build the country and not to let things take their course. For the sake of those who died and suffered, we have no right to give up and have no right to give up.

Text and photo:  Vika Yasinskaya, Censor.NET
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